LAZY is my name

Of late I’ve been so darn lazy. Lazy to do just about anything - even to watch TV or go out shopping. I did not cook for the last few days, even when my parents were here to send my siblings off to Mecca. My parents even went out shopping for groceries for me - that’s how lazy I was, that bad huh? Lazy has been my middle name for the last 1 week or so.

My laziness seems to come whenever my hubby travels outstation for more than a week. He was supposed to be away for only 8 days but his visit to the godforsaken country is being extended to almost 2 weeks...*sigh*. My biggest problem now is him - a problem that can’t possibly be solved.

4 years ago when he was stationed in Shanghai for 2 months, I almost had a breakdown. I had a very demanding job (if having 13 projects at the same time is not demanding enough for anyone, I don’t know what else to say) and Ariana was only a year old then. I worked from 9am to 9pm every day – that’s 60hrs a week with peanut salary. Thanks God I came to my senses and left after only 6mths (and the person who inherited my projects gave 24hrs notice a day after I left!) I have felt what single mothers have to go through every day. It was both an exhausting and a lonesome 2 months for both of us. He came home more than 5kg lighter and gained it all back in less than a month. I am that good of a cook huh? I know, I can’t believe it either...

Another alternative explanation is I lack something new and refreshing in my life... like a new handbag or a new car and things yang sama waktu dengannya. In short, my laziness is caused by excessive boredom. I think I like this explanation so much better. It highly curable - all I need is ka-ching and problem solved!! Like Dak Wan suggested, one LV could boost energy level and increase productivity...I loike!

Back to the root cause, my excessive boredom could have been caused by the fact that I’ve got nothing much to do. I don’t have to do house work, I don’t socialize much and I’m not very mobile coz I have a baby who is very attached to me and kids to ferry to school from 7am to 6.30pm every day. Sometimes I wish that I’m working again. At least I have time for myself to do my own stuff (while earning fixed income to buy things on my own)...*triple sigh*.

Kerja salah, tak kerja pun salah...someone please slap me.

Tetamu Allah

Two days ago I bid adieu to my 2 siblings, my only sister and my youngest brother, who left for Mecca to perform their Haj. I can’t help but feel sad and happy for both of them. Happy that they finally get to perform the 5th rukun Islam after a long wait and sad for no obvious reason. This part really bits me, why is it when people leave for their pilgrimage, we feel sad when we were supposed to feel happy for them? Happy that they're chosen to be amongst Allah's guests in the holy land. It’s not like they will be gone for a year...Weird huh? Anyway, here’s moi with the future haji and hajjah. I hope my turn will come soon...insyaAllah.

p/s: I'm so not in the mood to write these few days. I'm as lazy as a donkey to do just about anything, even cook for the kids. Moi is in desperate need of a mega mood booster...a new handbag would do it muahahaha...(I hope a certain someone is reading this)

This is it

Yesterday, my eyes started becoming all teary at the start of the movie. I knew what I was about to watch was going to be history in the making. It would have been the greatest comeback concert in history, no doubt about it. Sadly, it became a history with his sudden death instead.

The movie was basically about Michael Jackson’s “This is It” concert rehearsals and behind the scene actions. It was purely intended for MJ’s fan to have a peek of what “This is It” was supposed to have happened. The amount of efforts and preparations put into making his last tour a success was really overwhelming. Dancers came from all over the world to audition for the concert. So if you’re not a fan of his music, don’t waste your time and money at the movie.

Health-wise, MJ was at his top form during the many rehearsals - he sang his lungs out (although he kept saying that he shouldn’t sing, and that he should save his throat for the actual concert instead), he danced and performed with so much passion. You can tell that he loved his music deeply. He was indeed THE King of Pop.

Watching him in his top form (he even looked very fit for a 50year old man, albeit a little too thin) makes me wonder what had actually killed him. He looked really healthy performing on stage live, dancing and all. Oh, if you were wondering who’s the girl with frizzy hair who sang during his funeral concert - she is Judith Hill, one of his back-up vocalists in “This is It”. She was supposed to sing one song live with him during the actual concert. And I have to say that his (male) dancers are all so damn gooood *drooling*. They remind me of the movie 300...ngeeeeee.

Back on more serious notes, there are a few theories circulating amongst his fans about the actual cause of his death (or more like who killed him). There is one very interesting version connected to the rumors about his conversion to Islam. I like that version best. However, I am too chicken to spread the rumors here (sorry people I don’t wanna leave hard evident for people to trace it back to me...takuts! If I suddenly disappeared from the face of this earth, it’s the CIA! Call KGB for help pronto!!!).