Monday, March 29, 2010

Quest for flawless complexion (part 5)

My quest for flawless complexion continues. This time with SKII. I have completed a round of 10 treatments with New York Skin a couple of weeks ago. If that was a test, I’d say I didn’t graduate with flying colours. I merely met the passing mark. Yes I did see result from the treatment but based on my judgment the result didn’t quantify the amount I spent at all. Yet they kept pestering me to go for another so-called more intensive round. Not in this life time sista! I’m not that gullible you know...

Hence, on Friday I dragged my hubby to Parkson to get a brand new skin care range – SKII. I have started using it ever since. These days my 15 minutes ‘bersiap’ time has been extended to 30 minutes thanks to 5 types of products to apply on my face. Getting ready for bed also takes another 30 minute thanks to all sort of product to apply. What I like the most is the soothing and lingering smell of the products. It was quite a change from using fragrance-free products half of my life to products that smell like flowers. Quite a refreshing change I’d say. Love it.

With the new journey with SKII, I have tried 4 different types of products for my skin in the past – Clinique, AG2000, Dermalogica & New York Skin, all without much help. If SKII also failed to restore my skin, I don’t know what else to do...perhaps I just need to live with my pigmentation for life. I must try very hard to love it lorrr...boleh kah? Or should I ask for God’s intervention? I actually thought of including that in my prayers, but somehow I felt that it’s quite selfish to pray for flawless skin in my doa, don’t you think so? Or should I? Acik confuse la pulak...

I say ujian dari Allah comes in so many ways. Of health and wealth, it’s safe to say wealth is the heaviest test/burden one could have from God. You get closer to God when you are sick, but would you remember Him when you are filthy rich? Wallahuwa’lam...

Friday, March 26, 2010

*Too mad to think of a suitable title for this post*

My 9year old son told me over dinner last night that his ustazah told his class that we can’t play FarmVille because the creator of the game is a Jew. She said each time we play FarmVille we kill a malaikat! I may be jahil in my ilmu agama but for crying out loud is this what the teachers are teaching our kids in school??? About 6 years ago the ustaz and ustazah in my eldest son’s KAFA showed a video of Afghanistan war to the class during a Qiamullail exercise at school. A few days later I decided to send him to a different school.

Well some of you may think that I am less a Muslim because I do not condone such actions by the so-called guru-guru agama (at this rate I don’t think they even qualified to be called one). I beg to differ on this one for I think I am more a Muslim by not supporting such action. Islam is a religion of PEACE. We should not poison an innocent child’s mind with hatred and prejudice. Instead, we should teach them about love, peace and harmony. That’s the way to go you idiot! I have a very strong opinion on this issue. I am freeking angry when people teach my children to hate others simply because of what they are or because of their background.

Please don’t get me wrong, I am mad not because I love FarmVille. If the ustazah’s theory is right, I think we have killed enough malaikat everyday by just logging on to FaceBook, gulp our favorite soft drink, eat at our favorite fast food restaurants, get our coffee fix, use our handphones, devour our favorite instant noodle, watch TV & movie, use our computers and a hell lot of other stuff we do every single day. Using FB alone almost kill half the malaikat population already I think. Did you know that most technological inventions in this world were created/ invented in Israel? Israel is the top most innovative country in the world. Almost every single technological discoveries and innovations were created there and sold to big corporations in the West. Most of us didn’t know this. Now you know. So please tell me how NOT to kill malaikat everyday?

So ustazah...the next time you wanna tell something stupid to my kid, please do more research. Don’t turn my kid to an idiot or a katak di bawah tempurung like you. We already have enough idiots in this world.

I say if this is the kind of stuffs our kids are learning in school these days, there is no wonder Malaysia is still behind in so many ways...wallahuwa’lam.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Game over alright!

My FarmVille days are officially over and done with. I have reached the max level of the game about a week ago, much to my hubby’s relief. I am actually happy that I finally completed the game. I don’t think that I’ve ever played anything until I actually finished it, ever. I’m impressed with myself. Bravo Azura!

With game over in FarmVille, I find myself less hook on FB. I no longer feel the need and the urgency to get online every minute of the day. I am happy to note that I open the most visited social networking site much less these days. It’s about time for me to focus on other things, job hunting for example...hahaha. Some of you might wonder about my job hunting progress ever since I completed my resume a month ago. The truth is I am so darn lazy to look, I mean REALLY look for a job. Right now my only wish is for someone to come and hunt my head...LOL! You could say that my action is more like ‘melepas batuk di tangga’. Furthermore, there are not that many jobs available out there that really fit what I envisioned to be at this stage of my life. I don’t wanna settle for kuli job anymore, I want to lead a dynamic team and MUST be somewhere within 25km radius from my home...ngeeeee. If I can’t find a suitable position, I’d rather stay at home. I’ve made up my mind on that. Acik cita-cita tinggi mak oooi yet wanna be close to home too...camno tu?

Instead, I’ve been focusing more efforts in the kitchen lately. Of late lotsa good stuffs have been produced in my kitchen. Food stuff that I never thought I could prepare myself before. My hubby said that I have successfully eliminated the need for us to eat out coz everything we eat outside can now be prepared at home. He has since gained more weight too, to the point that he asked me to help him by not cooking! He said I should go back to work because when I work I don’t cook, hence he could lose some weight. If you were in my shoes, how would you respond to that? I don’t know la...

Owhhh, I have also stopped taking writing & editing jobs for 1 reason and 1 reason only – super late payment. When I do my jobs I really put all my efforts into it. Most of the time I work till the wee hours, did extra research, etc., all at my own expense. When you give your 100% but the other party doesn't give their 100% commitment for payment, over time it becomes kinda frustrating. I’m still waiting for payment for 3 previous jobs (1 of those completed in September last year, can you believe it?) amounting to more than 5K. I think I’m done being a freelance writer. Game over!

I say you give and you take but when you give more and take less it’s certainly not a healthy equation...

An intimate family affair for hubby’s 38th birthday


On Thursday, March 18th, my dear hubby turned 38. I was actually planning to throw him a huge surprise celebration with just the kids at home. But the big plan didn’t actually materialize as he decided to come home for lunch on his birthday which left us with very little time to prepare for the big surprise. Nevertheless, we made do with what little time we had and did our best to throw him a surprise celebration.

A couple of days before his birthday (during my mini interrogation) he asked for nasi lemak for lunch – my nasi lemak which he claimed ‘berhantu’ and best in the world...hooray! He once asked what I did to the nasi lemak that makes it so good. My secret is simple – lots and lotsa loves are poured in it!

picture doesn't do justice to my nasi lemak...(another case of masuk bakul angkat sendiri...muahahaha)
He actually wanted sambal paru2 but I didn't have enough time to go to pasar & get some paru2

A week before his birthday, the preparation was already underway. The cake was ordered – I love chocolate cake and he, cheesecake, hence I decided to marry the two and ordered moist choc cake layered with cheese cake. Smart eh? I know...tak sia-sia belajar sampai university...muahahaha. The present was bought 3 days in advance. Thank God the kids could keep a secret. My second son made him a card and managed to keep it a secret too. He googled to learn how to make the card. Isn’t him a kid of the new millennium? I like the attitude...ask uncle google when in doubt! All in all, my kids really helped made the surprise celebration a top kept secret. Bravo team Fatzunnahar!

The card Kyle made for him



Right after he left for work at around 8.40am, the team started working. I left to pick up the cake with my eldest son & made a pit stop for some roti canai for breakfast on the way home. Right after breakfast, the real work started. Daniel suggested that we prepare canapĂ© made of smoked salmon and baguette which he saw on AFC. I already had in mind easy peasy sausage roll, strawberry dip in dark chocolate and sandwiches. All ingredients were actually bought in advance but I did a good job by carefully hiding them in the fridge and other places that he couldn’t find.

Since Daniel came up with the idea of smoked salmon canapĂ©, I put him in charge of preparing them. The result turned up pretty good. And since Kyle loves egg sandwich so much, he was trusted with preparing them. Needless to say he ended up eating most of them! Ariana was given a simple task of dipping the strawberry in the melted chocolate. All of course with my close supervision and help. Sophie got the credit for making the sausage roll even though she did even touch it, lucky baby...haha. My idea was each kid must ‘own’ something in the celebration. The must have their own role to make it a meaningful celebration for their beloved papa. It was a perfect homemade celebration – everything was homemade except for the cake. Should I have enough time I’d have prepared the cake myself.

The result of the team effort


Once everything was done, I asked everyone to take a shower and made them dressed in their best attire and waited for papa to come home. We hide behind the door just when he drove into the porch. Sophie joined in the fun too but she was making plenty of noise behind the door that my hubby could actually hear her from outside! She was so darn cute sitting on the floor making shhhhh sign and directing everyone to sit. Nevertheless, we yelled ‘surprise’ the second he opened the door and managed to surprise him...phewww!

Of all the birthday celebrations we had in the past, I’d say that this is by far the best ever. I’m wondering how on earth do I top this for next year...susah wooo. Perhaps I too must ask uncle google for some help...ahaks.

Happy birthday my darling...muahhhh!!! Hope you like the present...wanted to get you something else but budget tak cukup my dear. Love you to death sayang!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Policegirl on active duty




Meet my cheeky ‘lil Sophia Amani aka policegirl of da house...more specifically in da master bedroom!!! She started her rounds of duty during bedtime ONLY when Dada is home. She ensures that Momma sleeps on her side of the bed and Dada sleeps on his side of the bed. Her main job is to ensure Momma and Dada stay as far apart as possible. Physical contact is strictly prohibited during bedtime, lovey dovey acts dan yang sewaktu dengannya in particular.

And she takes her job very seriously indeed. Should Dada tried to cross over to Momma’s side for any reason whatsoever she would scream and pointed to Dada’s side of the bed, instructing him to return to his side. She wouldn’t stop screaming until everyone is back at the ‘correct’ place. Even hands are NOT allowed to cross over to the other side, funny eh?

Yesterday after my hubby came back from a short working trip in India, she was working overtime till 1.30am! It was like she could sense some abnormal phenomenon was about to take place that night. This is no joke ya’ll. She was trying all her best to keep Momma away from Dada. First, it was fun watching her rather strange behavior but when it kept going on and on till half past 1am exhausting us with her antics, my hubby raised his voice in his attempt to get her to sleep. It worked! She fell asleep while hugging me tightly on my chest. It was like she was saying – “Dada, you keep away from my Momma. Tonight, she’s all mine!” None of my other kids had done that at any age.

She has also started demonstrating serious sibling rivalry towards her only sister – throwing tantrums when her sister is sitting closer to Momma, Dada and even bibik, or when she senses her sister is getting more attention than her. She also cries her lung out when her sister gets to Momma or Dada first, or even when Nana gets into the car first and lots more lah. She has to come before her sister in all instances! I say this baby is growing up way too fast. She is acting beyond her age. Oh, she doesn’t hesitate to even whack her sister whenever she feels like it too!

I say Allah maha kaya, even when the kids are raised in the same environment by the same parents, eat the same food and expose to the same experiences, they have their own unique personality even at their tender age. I say nature triumphs over nurture hands down!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Therapy for the tired soul

I woke up this morning with an urge to spend some money (I can’t help it, I’m a woman remember...we are born to shop! Blame it on the gender pleaseeee). Actually I’ve been shopping almost every day this week, but mostly groceries that I don’t need...ngeh ngeh ngeh

By 8.30am I was all dress up and raring to go. Luckily shopping malls in Malaysia open at 10am otherwise I’d have started my shopping excursion as early as 9am today. But the trick was I only had 2 hours to shop coz I gotta pick up Nana from school at half past noon. Hence, I had to make it a quick one – shopping while brisk walking! Good for your health and your pocket too - coz you won’t spend as much as you are in a hurry. But then again, it could also work against you as you won’t have ample time to think whether you have enough moolah to pay for your purchases later. Nevertheless, I super loike this activity.

First stop was Ikea. I came out about an hour later with a trolley load of stuff that I can definitely live without. Not satisfied yet, next stop was Ikano. I went to Brands Outlet to shop for apparels for my two princesses after a quick pit stop to eat - I was too hungry to shop. Came out about an hour later with a huge bag full of apparels for my girls. If you like shopping for branded items at a really good bargain especially for young kids up to 5years old, I highly recommend this place. I shop for out of season apparels for my girls to wear at home at this place. It has turned to my fav place to shop these days. I could shop here every week I tell ya.

Came back just in time to pick up nana from school (while committing a few traffic offences along the way)...phewww. I am such a happy woman today! Food, SPA, manicure and what not may work for some women, but shopping for stuff I DON’T need really work for me. It’s such a superb therapy for the tired soul. Remember this, a happy wife makes a happy home...and you’ll never know what a happy woman can do to her man…hi hi hi hi hi *sambil mengilai seperti pontianak*

School holiday is coming next week. I shall have another 1-week break yahoooooo!!! But my dear hubby is travelling during the school break. So, no short gateway this time too...*sigh*. His different-country-every week routine has started again. Ahhh well...never mind, if I ever feel bored I shall embark on a few more retail rounds – therapy for the tired and may I add, lonely soul too...wheeeeee!

On a topic related to shopping (of a different scale), I have decided that I don’t like Mini Cooper anymore (not that I’m planning to get a new car ya!). I hopped into a friend’s Mini recently and it wasn’t as comfortable and as smooth ride as I thought it would be; or may be the driver is not a very good driver (hihihi...jangan mareee tokey cupcakes). Perhaps I expect too highly of it. I have decided that if I ever needed (fyi, the want is always there, just waiting for the need to come) to change my car, I want an upgrade of my current ride - my second best friend for the last 4.5 years. The 9year old machine still drives like new and never once failed me when it comes to speeding and on the road performance – way to go babeh!! [Note to hubby: please take mental note of this statement for future planning]

I say once you found something that makes you happy, you should not stop yourselves from enjoying it to the fullest. Just make sure that you don't go overboard. A happy mother makes a happy family, a happy wife makes a happy home, a happy woman makes an even happier man...take my words for it, my hubby would certainly agree with me on the last point *wink*

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

When enough is enough

Human being being human being could only take certain matters to certain extend (whoaaa I sound a bit confusing here). One could only take so much criticism, betrayal, humiliation, pain and even compliments. One of my siblings is going through this rough patch career-wise which inspires me to write this article. Once enough is enough it’s time to let go and move on. But when is enough, enough?

Take labour pain for example, for some once she can’t take it anymore, it’s time to ask for epidural (some are even better prepared and asked for epidural beforehand, bravo!). All it takes is just one injection (with such a huge needle) then the pain will go away almost instantly. But for some who has higher pain threshold will just swallow the pain till the baby arrived and the pain will go away in an instance too. I used to be the type that would swallow away the pain and hope for it to go away naturally. But not till recently.

I had my fair share of humiliation and not being appreciated in my career before. Sometimes I can’t help but feel that it all boils down to skin colour when you work in certain organizations. The last time I felt that I had enough, I left with when my dignity and self-esteem are still intact. There is absolutely no point of putting up with such behavior and rotting inside for other’s sake.

Speaking based on someone else’s experience, how would you feel after dedicating more than 15 years of your life to serving and helping others prosper and make millions but to be treated like rubbish at the end? I say stop, don’t look back and the hell with them. They can go straight to hell if they want. I say what goes around comes around, what goes up must come down. It’s the law of gravity. One day they will be at the receiving ends like us and they’ll get their fair share of pain and humiliation too. Allah maha kaya.

Back to my question of when is enough, enough? I say the only person who knows the answer is you. Much like labour pain, you can have high, low or no pain threshold at all. For me, I say I have enough when you say something else but your action speaks differently. Allahuakbar!

Monday, March 1, 2010

To cherish and to love...

After a few failed attempts to get tickets, I finally get to watch Valentine’s Day with my darling hubby yesterday. It was such a romantic and heartwarming movie that I shed tears a few time – I’m woman enough to admit it...ahah! By the way, I should’ve planned ahead and brought tissue but I didn’t and had to wipe my tears with my blouse...not a very pretty sight I tell ya! It is this kind of movies that reminds us about the meaning of true love and devotion and the value of understanding in a relationship (marriage to be exact). Although I acknowledge that the stories could ONLY happen in movies, yet I can’t help but feel how lucky I am to have found the love of my life - other half of me, my husband.

Therefore today, instead of complaining about him, I have decided to say nothing but praises about the man I love the most – the man who by the way keeps threatening to ‘delete’ my beloved farm in FarmVille! But I still love him with all my heart and soul nevertheless.

He will be celebrating his 38th birthday this month, unfortunately his birthday falls in what could be the most important month for him work-wise plus my bro-in-law, who is also the youngest in the family, is getting engaged during his birthday week too. There goes my big plan for his birthday...sigh!

He has started travelling again yesterday after staying put in Malaysia since December last year. This is the man who is solely responsible for building CGA business from literally zero to hundreds of millions of USD worldwide for the company he works for (obviously I’m doing some free advertising for him here...hehehe). He definitely deserves much better from the company...but an Asian can’t be too demanding. It’s not in our culture, right? Nevertheless, he commands a rather huge salary package, thanks to moi who insisted that he demands for a better package not once but twice years back before he accepted the offer (remember, behind every successful man there is an incredibly smart wife...ngeh ngeh ngeh). But it never seems enough, with that kind of salary he could actually afford to buy me not just 1 but 2 LVs every month, take me on overseas vacation every other month and buy me a brand new Mini. I suppose with great salary comes great debt! Kwang, kwang, kwangggggg...(I'm NOT complaining here).

Yet, at home still washes his own plate although I insist that the maid will do that, make his own drink (and for me too), prepare his own breakfast, take care of the kids especially the young ones and help the kids with their homework when he’s home. He is also a handyman, a pool boy (somehow when I wrote this the image of pool boy portrayed in the Hollywood movies keeps flashing in my head...yummylicious! Please ignore me, this is a desperate housewife talking!), an electrician, a chauffeur and now the official family photographer too. Could I be luckier? I say definitely NOT...but on second thought if I had David Beckham or Brad Pitt for a husband may be YES...hehehehehe (again, I'm NOT complaining)

Anyway back on a serious note, a friend of a friend who recently lost her husband said to not take each other for granted. We often say this when it was already too late, don't you agree? A friend who recently lost his wife in an accident said he felt like it was a dream. One minute his wife was sitting next to him in his car and next he was burying her. I can’t even begin to imagine how they feel deep inside to lose their loved ones. I think I could be temporarily insane or rather choose to live in denial for as long as I could. Can you imagine losing your spouse? The person whom you shared your lives with for the last say...15 years, the person whom you sleep next to, share your secrets and your passions with - in short the person who knows you better than anyone else in the whole wide world? I can’t!!!

We must remind ourselves to cherish, to love and not to take each other for granted while we still have the luxury of having our loved ones around. The same goes for our parents, siblings, kids, friends, etc.

Now back to the movie, when the handsome gentleman (whom I forgot his name) asked Julia Robert, who sat next to him on a 14-hr flight, “Are you on Facebook?” I found it to be both very entertaining and worrisome at the same time. My husband has befriended a few people (sadly, women included too) whom he met during his travels and keep in touch through FB...hmmmmmmmmm. I could only guess that he asks the same question to the person who sit next to him on a long flight. What can I say, can’t live without it, can’t live with it! (by 'it' I mean Facebook!). Didn't I say that I'm only gonna sing praises about him? Ah well...sikit2 complain ok la tuh kan.

I say one should not be too trusting. We must leave some rooms for doubts...sesungguhnya manusia adalah bukan Nabi (also NOT complaining, just merely stating the obvious).

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